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You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose.
Jo Courdert
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I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you.
Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche
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All my friends got flowers in their eyes
But I got none this season
All of the last ten years’ blooms have gone and died
Time doesn’t give a reasonAsk yourself sometimes
What you need to be forgiven?
Everything that you’ve ever done wrong
Is the reason that I’m driven
Straight to you.
Waiting here for you
Wanting to tell you
How I get my ends and
My beginnings mixed up too
Just the way you do
Thought if I told you
You might want to stay
For just another day or twoWe have begun to change into
The worst kind of people
So unkind
Oh apologies, no apologies, this apology
Doesn’t describe the way it feels
To feel for you.
Waiting here for you
Wanting to tell you
How I find myself slowly disappearing too
Just the way you do
I thought if I told you
You might want to help me to remain with you
Beneath the sun in summer,
A sea of flowers won’t bloom without the rain
But oh, this desert life, this high life
Here at the dying of the day
And baby, it’s just my way
I don’t want to go home alone,
I wanna come on home to you -
I have a bloody nose right now.
I’ve never ever had a bloody nose in my life.
This is my very first one.
Fucken twenty four.The first thing I wanted to do was tell B.
I think, because I’m scared.
And having nobody to share my first bloody nose with makes me feel like a desert.
But he doesn’t get to know me so well anymore.
Which is hard to acclimate to.
I need to learn to let go.
So I’m going to sit here and enjoy my alonedom…
With my blood and my sand and my cactus. -
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.
Anatole France
- Constant detours do not bring a man into the presence of greatness. Detours do not build muscle. Detours do not provide life’s lessons. Between you and anything significant will be giants in your path.
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new rising schedule in Haiku form.
I can’t sleep past six.
I wish I didn’t have to
have so much hours.
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Dinner! Kumato tomatoes!!
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My Favorite Song.
Please, remember me
Mistakenly
In the window of the tallest tower call
Then pass us by
But much too high
To see the empty road at happy hour
Gleam and resonate
Just like the gates
Around the holy kingdom
With words like ‘Lost and Found’ & ‘Don’t Look Down’
And ‘Someone Save Temptation’
And
Please, remember me
As in the dream
We had of rug-burned babies
Among the fallen trees
And fast asleep
Beside the lions and the ladies
That called you what you like
And even might
Give a gift for your behavior
A fleeting chance to see
A trapeze
Swinger high as any savior
But
Please, remember me
My misery
And how it lost me all I wanted
Those dogs that love the rain
And chasing trains
The colored birds above there running
In circles round the well
And where it spells
On the wall behind St. Peter’s
So bright with cinder gray
And spray paint
‘Who the hell can see forever?’
And
Please, remember me
Seldomly
In the car behind the carnival
My hand between your knees
You turn from me
And said “the trapeze act was wonderful
But never meant to last”
The clown that passed
Saw me just come up with anger
When it filled with circus dogs
The parking lot
Had an element of danger
So
Please, remember me
Finally
And all my uphill clawing
My dear
But if I make
The pearly gates
I’ll do my best to make a drawing
Of god and lucifer
A boy and girl
An angel kissin on a sinner
A monkey and a man
A marching band
All around the frightened trapeze swingers
